Quara-enough of this Sh*t!

There's a time when we just have to choose our sanity vs. bullshit! I've learned that no job or person deserves so much of my energy. It just drains us and lowers our frequency.We need things that are going to keep our frequency flowing. When your energy is not flowing correctly, you just feel stuck, miserable and it causes frustration. This 

quarantine took a big turn where I had to say BYE to everything that no longer serves me and lowers my frequency.  

It was the second week of quarantine and I just had enough of living with my sister. I left her house, it got to a point where enough is enough. I kept pushing myself  to stay strong and to ignore the issue, but I kept sugar coating it by telling myself to stay positive and nothing is permanent. I felt stuck living with her, causing myself misery and pain. I couldn't live in a home where I  couldn't say a word and had to bite my tongue. I like to express myself and if you don't like it, well you have unresolved issues that you need to work on. Sadly, that was the case.

My sister kept reminding  me of  the past and I just couldn't live that way. These past three years I've been working on myself to forgive my past, move on and see what I have in front of me. When you forgive your past, you feel good. When someone reminds you of your past,they just add attachment back to your life and you don't need unnecessary bullshit. I knew it was toxic to live there when my brand new flowers started to die the next day and my cherry bush died on me. One day, it got really heated. I knew it was going to happen sooner or later.  I packed my shit and left to my aunts house! Once, I got to my aunts house I felt so relieved and I could breathe again. Like shit! I can breathe again. I've learned new things from my aunt and I enjoy our daily walks. Plus, I have a new roommate that acts like my millionth mom "Nancy, eat your greens girl!" I'm grateful to live where my sanity is at a normal level. 

While staying at my aunts, I was assigned to pack up my former job and ship whatever was left to the corporate office. As usual, I was the only human working. I went in early and packed 21 boxes full of accessories alone. That day, I knew I was not going back. I left my keys in the safe. That day I left the store at 8 PM. I was hungry and frustrated that people make excuses not to work for a few hours. That same week, I had my review. It went well. I didn't think too much of it. It seemed more like a fuckin interview. A day later, I received a call  from my previous DM saying that the owner couldn't pay the whole southwest, so they were laying off the whole company due to the Coronavirus. He seemed a little hesitant and something didn't seem right. He sends me the unemployment link and it didn't work. The next day, I asked my fellow colleagues if they had any issues. They asked why? and seemed confused. So I decided to do my research and the whole southwest was just me. So I felt disappointed that my DM had lied to me. Honesty is a big thing for me. If you can't be honest, you need to go. So I text him, not to contact me when they decide to open. Yes, it was irrational, but again why should I stay in a toxic place? I loved my job, but people made me hate going to work. By people, I don't mean customers. I loved my friendships with my clients, helping the Ops Manager and meeting other people from the company. I had shitty ass jobs in the past but this one was actually my second fave. It was a great experience but it was time to let it go and do me.

I felt like this quarantine was cleansing mother earth and me. I was detoxing toxic people, jobs and learning to taking care of me. Basically getting rid all the toxic shit that no longer serves me. After my fight with my sister, just like every other sibling we fight and forgive each other. I love my sister and the day I left, I forgave her. Just like I forgave my sister, I forgave my DM and my teammates for being shitty to me. I rather live in peace and keep thriving! God has a bigger plan for me. I'm here for a reason and I'm here to shine. Remember your worth and take every risk for yourself! This is the best part of my journey, I'm taking every risk. Breaking old habits and becoming the best version of myself. I am aligning myself with my true destiny and my purpose in life.