Quara- lame

  The Coronavirus started in China and made it's way to the United States. People were making jokes, until the joke was on us. People were rushing to grocery stores and stocking up on essentials like it was the end of time or the apocalypse. Streets became empty and our daily routine was no longer the same. What is life at this point?

 The Coronavirus or Covid-19 made it's appearance in the DFW area, shutting every business down and putting everything we ever knew to the side. On Tuesday March 17, My former job closed their stores in the Dallas-Fort worth area. I was honestly like holy shit we're really going on a lock down. During this time, I was battling with a small depression, stress, anxiety and I got really sick. I honestly thought I had the Coronavirus, especially because I had just came from Europe. So imagine 1000 people getting on you on a daily basis and telling you that "you need to get check you were out the country" or "You have all the Coronavirus symptoms." Which  I had no symptoms besides the knot in my throat. Everyone received their Doctor's Degree in a day and knew what was going on with me. Turns out that knot was digestion issue, it was the worst thing I have ever experience in my life. I had to change my whole routine and Diet within hours. I had to say goodbye to my wine, Hot Cheetos and everything I ever enjoyed eating . Do you know how hard that it is? It's very fucking hard.

I started eating more clean. Waking up and meditating, Thanking the universe for being with me through these crazy times. I also started doing yoga and exercising, which I completely slacked off  for the longest, but I couldn't sit on my ass and do nothing. I even finished reading my book that I bought a year ago. It was a greatest feeling in the world. I was finally getting Nancy together! Then when you think things are going OK, your former bosses want you to make calls for other stores that are in East Texas and go work out there. Excuse me? It was like they cared about driving sales and making us drive 2 hours out of our way. I spoke for myself and emailed a novel on why I couldn't drive out to East Texas. One my immunity was at shit and at the time and I was living with two little ones. So hell no!

This was the first couple weeks of quarantine and I felt like everything was just falling apart at this point, I was just finding myself fighting with my sister and I felt miserable. I was feeling more sad every single day. Lets just say that crying before going to bed was always my jam and texting my sister's "I hate it here". All I could do is breathe, cry and pray to god every night because I was honestly done with life at this point.